I think you can come closer to Christ by music, prayer, baptism, and mediation. All these things that you can do is on your own time. You can ask Jesus to pray with you. You can do all these things and you can talk to him. Anything is possible. And I know it.
You can go higher in life ,you have the agency to do that. And dark spirits will try and stop you from going higher. But don't be afraid. Just ask Heavenly Father to help you. Just know he will help you always. Because he cares about you. And he loves you. So never be afraid.